Cultivating Sometimes Isn't Pretty

Part 2

Always interesting the conversations that are stirred when you begin to filter through every material item you own. Jason and I were able to be transported back to the time we were dating, engaged, newly married, new parents and all the moves and the people we had morphed into being. We obviously we were growing more and more into new people. We were different people. Some intentional, some parts of us we didn't see coming. Because Jason had left his corporate career only a year before, we were still figuring out so many things about this new little life we had going. 

We were starting to let ourselves dream a bit more about what we wanted now that all the checkmarks had been placed beside all the goals.

Kids 

Acreage

Nice little retirement nest egg

Great community of friends

Location of our dream...

Wait. Was that checked? Neither one of us could say that we knew without a doubt that this was the place. We thought we had moved into our forever home. But God was doing a thing. We gave it all to us. And began whispering to us: See? You have it. Now, does it feel like you thought? Do you maybe see that I have more for you?

This haunted us. Was this it? Was this the life we were settling into for the haul? If so, Great! Let's do it! But if not, what then? Where? How? Oh my land, this sends my tummy for a little roller coaster ride just thinking through it. We realized that we were so very focused on getting to where we were, that we were so narrowly focused that we didn't ever sit back and get really quiet with God. Once He set the dream of "the life" before us, we never really asked again if that was still the plan. I mean we prayed and asked for guidance to get there in the big and small decisions. But that was about it. Just His hand in getting there. No time for the quiet response of, 'Yep. This is still the plan I have for you.' 

But what if there was something different? And what does that mean?